I injured my back on Monday of last week. Since then I’ve been following my doctor’s advice and resting, icing and taking muscle relaxers. I have not been going to Crossfit.
Not part of my doctor’s advice, however, has been that I’ve also been eating like a lumberjack working overtime in the middle of winter.
Yes, that includes pancakes.
After an entire week of what can only be described as gluttony, I NEED to rein myself in. I believe this so strongly that I’m blogging about it in the hopes of giving myself extra accountability. I have worked too damn hard to have it all undone because I have to take a few weeks off of Crossfit and I can’t keep it together psychologically during that time.
In case it isn’t obvious by now, I’m very much an all-or-nothing kind of girl.
When I’m committed to something, I am committed 100%. If I’m exercising, I’m eating well, and if I’m eating well I’m exercising.
Unfortunately, with that mindset the opposite is also true. So if I’m NOT training, I’m taking my gluttony to an extreme. And if I’m eating like pewp, I’m definitely not exercising.
It’s an ugly cycle. But with knowledge comes power. I KNOW that these are my tendencies, so it is up to me to identify this problem and break my own bad habits by finding a solution.
While it might seem to someone outside my brain like this is a simple fix, for me it really isn’t. The fix to get back on track is to be active. It won’t matter how little, but as long as I’m motivated to do something daily, my diet will fall back into place.
With my new fancy globo gym membership, I have access to a pool, and plan to use it beginning today. Swimming is a 100% doctor approved activity, and given the location of my back injury, I’m confident that I will be able to do it without any pain. I’m also going to give the lunch ride a go tomorrow, as I’m fairly certain that the positioning on the bike should not irritate my back either. It’s only a 10 mile commitment, so if it DOES hurt, it’ll be over quickly. I also know the route very well and could cut it much shorter if I needed to.
The key for me this week is going to be planning. I need to determine what I CAN do, and then plan my day around those activities. I also need to do a good job of planning my meals, packing lunches, and having dinners ready to go to help avoid situations where a box of mac and cheese or just eating out at our local burger joint become the most appealing options.
I recognize the next few weeks are probably going to be a struggle for me. But my goal for myself is that the struggle is what it should be, a physical one where I work to heal and rehab my back… NOT a psychological one where I sabotage my success.
So here’s day 1 of beating my own crazy. I got this.